Guilt....

So I have been feeling guilty lately. Not for "misbehaving" or "naughtiness", but for not being able to be around as much for my kids. I feel like I have something or somewhere to go every night of the week. I am missing out on the little things, which at first wasn't so bad (aka dinner, putting them to bed,homework) but now I feel out of the loop with it all. I am the mom, I should have more control over these things. Alas work and church callings has put me into a little bit of an overload with afternoons and evenings. For the past month I have had one night during the week to actually be at home with the family, with nothing else to do but be together all night! I think the guilt comes in more when my kids ask if I have to go to work today, and when I reply yes, they get very very sad. I guess for awhile there I didn't realize that I really was gone as much as I was. I was just reflecting on the past month, and the hectic mess I felt it has been. At least I have a fabulous husband who is the one who gets them while I am gone. Thank goodness for that, otherwise that would have opened a whole other can of worms! Hopefully things will calm down, and I can spend a little more time at home and less away. I am working towards 2 nights during the week to actually be able to be all together as a family. At least I have a job in these crummy times, and the blessings will come in heaven for being gone every wed night for mutual! thanks for letting me vent that out!, it helps.